Wednesday July 29, 2009

I made a decision that I have been thinking about for the past couple of days - I am going to include the same thing everyday as 1 of my 3 beautiful things. I know that sounds like cheating or something, but this one thing is something that I do everyday for myself that really is really just for me and it is the most important part of my day. Every morning I sit on my back porch with this laptop and drink a few cups of coffee and smoke a few cigarettes. I just sit here and do things online like catch up on my email and other blogs I read everyday and so forth. And I just enjoy the nature around me, I live right on the edge of a forest so there is a lot of nature around me, mostly just birds, owls, and wild hogs. I just sit here and watch them all and enjoy my time alone as the sun comes up. I'm usually out here around 5am or so and I stay out here until the baby wakes up, usually around 9am or so. So i figured I have to include this as one of my 3 beautiful things because it is so important to me and like I said the best part of everyday for me. And I'll just tell you about my thoughts and what I see sitting here, I hope its not a turn off and I hope you dont think its cheating.
Since I wrote all that and it is Thursday morning now I wont go into details about my reflections yesterday except to tell you what I saw. Yesterday the mama hog and her 6 piglets visited me early. They usually show up around 6:30-7am for a few minutes and I usually see them every couple of days or so. Well yesterday they were early and only 3 piglets came out. They normally all come out to my bird feeder and eat whats on the ground or root right by the edge of the trees. I could here mama and the rest in the woods, but didnt see them. It worries a bit, just because I hope they are all ok. The piglets are so cute, my favorite one is a brown one with black spots. He's kind of like the blacksheep of the family. Hes the only one with spots and hes kind of a loner, I guess thats why hes my fav. I'm kind of a loner and the black sheep of my family. I know it sounds crazy, but I can feel something from him, like an auroa (sorry dont know how to spell it) or something. He and I made eye contact one day and it was almost blissful. I know that sounds nuts and no I'm not trying to be a pig whisperer or something. It was just something very real. So anyway I hope they're all ok and I hope I see all of them today.
My next thing is a pretty major thing for me as well. I stood up for myself at work lastnight, which is not usually me. I am usually such a passive person that I'm usually everyones doormat. But lastnight my boss was telling me and another person that I wasnt doing something that I was doing. So I stood my ground and did what I had to do until I was able to prove the truth. Well once the truth was revealed I was appologized to and actually given props for the fact that I was doing it so well. Ok see, I work at Food Lion as a cashier and we are supposed to greet every customer that walks in, "Hi, welcome to Food Lion, bla bla bla". Well the big boss was telling my supervisor that myself and another girl were not greeting people. Now first of all, I took this job because I like working with the public and I enjoy talking to people. And I know how important it is to them that we do this. They make it very clear to us that Food Lion wants the public to feel at home and very welcomed once they walk in the door. Now no matter what my job is I always take pride in what I do. So I make sure I greet people, granted I may not greet everyone, but I certainly do try. Ya know, if I'm engaged in conversation with my customer at the register its kind of hard to greet someone else. Especially if I am talking at the exact moment when a patron walks in. I mean am I wrong for not understanding how to talk to 2 different people at the same exact moment? Besides I feel its rude to stop talking to my customer just to greet someone else, especially if another cashier has already greeted this same person. Anyway, I made it very clear to them that I was greeting people, as many as I could, and I told them I'm not about to be reprimanded for something that I am doing well. My supervisor just kept saying, "well just do it ok?" I kept saying, "no, I am doing it!" Anyway about an hour later I still wasnt stopping until I finally got both of them to look at the tapes of me at the front. And they both saw that I was greeting as many customers as I could while taking care of my customers at my register. They both apologized and told me that I was actually doing a good job and it was the other cashier who was not doing hers. This was a big step for me because normally I would just say ok, ok, whatever. But for some reason I was not about to go down for something that I was already doing and that I felt I was already doing well. So it felt good to stand up for myself and I think I"ll be doing more of that. This is thanks to Priscilla, my counselor for teaching me that its not ok to be walked on and that I should stand up for my job well done. So thank you Priscilla.
My 3rd thing was also work related. Another employee asked if her and I could switch shifts. She was to leave at 9pm and I was to leave at 11pm. She wanted to stay until 11 and asked if I would leave at 9pm. So I thought about and I realized how exhausted I was and agreed. So I took care of myself first and came home and went to bed early and caught up on some much needed sleep.